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Jag känner mig tom. Avtrubbad.

And I'm just standing there
I can't say a word
Because everything is just gone
I've got nothing
Absolutely nothing

In one single moment, your whole life can turn round
I stand there for a minute, staring straight into the ground
Looking to the left slightly, then looking back down
The world feels like it's caved in, proper sorry frown

Please let me show you where we could only just be for us
I can change, and I can grow, or we could adjust
The wicked thing about us is we always have trust
We can even have an open relationship if you must

I look at her, she stares almost straight back at me
But her eyes glaze over, like she's looking straight through me
Her eyes must have closed for what seems an eternity
When they open up she's looking down at her feet

Dry your eyes mate
I know it's hard to take, but her mind has been made up
There's plenty more fish in the sea
Dry your eyes mate
I know you want to make her see how much this pain hurts
But you've got to walk away now, it's over

So then I move my hand up and down by my side
It's shaking; my life is crashing before my eyes
I turn the palm of my hand up to face the skies
Touch the bottom of her chin and let out a sigh

'Cause I can't imagine my life without you and me
There's things I can't imagine doing
Things I can't imagine seeing
It weren't supposed to be easy, surely
Please, please, I'm begging, please

She brings her hands up towards where my hands rested
She wraps her fingers around mine with the softness she's blessed with
She peels away my fingers, looks at me and then gestures
By pushing my hand away to my chest, from hers

Dry your eyes mate
I know it's hard to take, but her mind has been made up
There's plenty more fish in the sea
Dry your eyes mate
I know you want to make her see how much this pain hurts
But you've got to walk away now, it's over

And I'm just standing there
I can't say a word
Because everything is just gone
I've got nothing
Absolutely nothing

Trying to pull her close out of bear desperation
Put my arms around her, trying to change what she's saying
Pull my head level with hers so that she might engage in
Look in to her eyes to make her listen again

I'm not gonna fucking just fucking leave it all now
'Cause you said it'd be forever, and that was your vow
And your gonna let our things simply crash and fall down
You're well out of order now, this is well out of town

She pulls away my arms, tightly clamped round her waist
Gently pushes me back as she looks at me straight
Turns around so she's now got her back to my face
Takes one step forward, looks back, then walks away

Dry your eyes mate
I know it's hard to take, but her mind has been made up
There's plenty more fish in the sea
Dry your eyes mate
I know you want to make her see how much this pain hurts
But you've got to walk away now, it's over

I know in the past I've found it hard to say
Telling you things, but not telling straight
But the more I pull on your hand and say
The more you pull away

Dry your eyes mate
I know it's hard to take, but her mind has been made up
There's plenty more fish in the sea
Dry your eyes mate
I know you want to make her see how much this pain hurts
But you've got to walk away now

White boy in town
Big black, blue sound
Night club, I paid in
I got a stamp on my skin

Main attraction dead on his feet
Black man rhythm with a white boy beat
They got him on milk and alcohol
They got him on milk and alcohol

Stay put I wanna go
Hard work, bad show
More liquor, it don't help
He's gonna die, it breaks my heart

I decided eventually
This ain't doing a thing for me
They got him on milk and alcohol
They got him on milk and alcohol 

They got him on milk and alcohol
They got him on milk and alcohol
They got him on milk and alcohol
They got him on milk and alcohol

Got up, I walked out
To the car, start it up
Feel bad, sad night
I never saw a red light

Sirens were a screamin' all around
I pulled on over and I shut her down
A black cop gave me a shove with his gun
Said up against the wall and don't make a run
They got me on milk and alcohol
They got me on milk and alcohol

Imagine there's no heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today

Imagine there's no countries,
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope some day you'll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope some day you'll join us
And the world will live as one

Come on in, no this ain't no dream
Better hold on tight things ain't what they seem, no no no
Don't be afraid if your heart's burning ready to go
Well I love it when I scare you so
From your head down to your -Oh!

Scream until ya like it
Never gonna stop
Scream until ya like it
Get ready to rock
Scream until ya like it
Never gonna stop
Scream until ya like it

I get up around seven
Get outta bed around nine
And I don't worry about nothin' no
Cause worryin's a waste of my... time

The show usually starts around seven
We go on stage around nine
Get on the bus about eleven
Sippin' a drink and feelin' fine

....

Now I get up around whenever
I used to get up on time
But that old man
he's a real muthafucker
Gonna kick him on down the line

I used to do a little
but a little wouldn't do
So the little got more and more
I just keep tryin'
to get a little better
Said a little better than before
I used to do a little
but a little wouldn't do
So the little got more and more
I just keep tryin'
to get a little better
Said a little better than before

You don't like listening to death rap, well I do
There's nothing like beautiful music for you to die to
You can't stop pain, how long will cocaine last
A coltrain's blast, will leave you with no brains fast
Dont rap, stab yourself to the beat instead
Dont impress me with your raps, impress me by being dead
I'll be impressed when your bleeding red
Cause at least you can say you've done somethin I havent done yet

I want a fistful, fistful of diamonds
I live for the glory and fame
I want a fistful, fistful of diamonds
The millions are calling my name

Ge mig en diamant nu. Nu. Nu. NU.

Beskrivning från adlibris.com:

I en av de mest unika missbruksbiografierna som någonsin publicerats delar Mötley Crües ledare Nikki Sixx med sig av sina fängslande dagboksanteckningar. Då Mötley Crüe var som störst och befann sig på toppen av deras karriär, fanns det ingen drog som Nikki Sixx tvekade att använda. Han befann sig dagar i sträck i en kokain och heroinbaserad dimma och han upplevde "toppar" som var toppen och dalar som drog honom ända ner till botten. Under dessa år så skrev han flitigt och öppenhjärtigt dagbok som avslöjar stunder av eufori och glädje men också om stunder av paranoia och ångest.

Vi får följa Nikkis fullständigt fängslande och gripande dagbok under de år då han föll till den absoluta botten - för att fatta det tappra beslutet att resa sig upp och börja leva igen.

Dagboken kompletteras med nyskrivna träffande kommentarer från dem som var där samt från Nikki Sixx själv.

Jag har redan läst boken en gång tidigare och den är så bra! Jag är väldigt förtjust i rockbiografier, och denna och The Dirt måste vara dom bästa jag läst än så länge. Och även om man inte är något Mötleyfan eller ens vet vilka dom är så tycker jag att det verkligen är böcker värda att läsas, för dom har gjort mycket saker dom här killarna. Ders liv var verkligen sex, drugs & rock n' roll fullt ut.

Läs The Dirt och Heroin Diaries!

We could sail away
Or catch a freight train
Or a rocketship into outer space
Nothin' left to do
Too many things we've said
To ever make it feel
Like yesterday did

Seasons must change
Separate paths/Separate ways
If we blame it on anything
Let's blame it on the rain

I knew it all along
I'd have to write this song
Too young to fall in love
Guess we knew it all along

That's alright, that's okay
We were walking through some youth
Smilin' through some pain
That's alright, that's okay
Let's turn the page

My friends called today
Down from L.A.
They were shooting pool all night
Sleeping half the day
They said I could crash
If I could find my own way
I told them you were leaving
On a bus to go away

That's alright, that's okay
We were two kids in love
Trying to find our way
That's alright, that's okay
Held our dreams in our hands
Let our minds run away
That's alright, that's okay
We were walking through some youth
Smilin' through some pain
That's alright, let's turn the page
And remember what I say girl
And it goes this way:

Girl, don't go away mad
Girl, just go away

När du slängde ut mig förra gången klämde du min hand,
då var jag schyst och gav dig inte ens en reprimand.
Men du gick på och skrek att jag gjort ett märke på din dörr.
Då förklarade jag lugnt o fint att märket är från förr.
Men vad får jag? vad får jag för det?
Får jag kotletter och bärs på nån fredag efter jobbet?
Nej, jag får skit. Jag får så in i helvete mycket skit.

D V N O
Four capital letters
Printed in gold
'Cause details make the girls sweat even more
while they're shaking their belt
No need to ask my name
to figure out how cool I am


Damn right

Hold your grandmother's Bible to your breast.
Gonna put it to the test.
You want it to be blessed.
And in your heart,
You know it to be true,
You know what you gotta do.
They all depend on you.
And you already know.
Yeah, you already know how this will end.

There is no escape,
From the slave-catchers' songs.
For all of the loved ones gone.
Forever's not so long.
And in your soul,
They poked a million holes.
But you never lettem show.
C'mon it's time to go.

And
You
Already know.
Yeah, you already know
How this will end.

Now you've seen his face.
And you know that there's a place,
In the sun,
For all that you've done,
For you and your children.
No longer shall you need.
You always wanted to believe,
Just ask and you'll receive,
Beyond your wildest dreams.

And
You
Already know.
Yeah, you already know
How this will end.

You already know (You already know)
You already know (you already know)
You already love will end.